Ain.....
anak perempuan ku. satu-satunya. the only one. tiada dua. my bundle of joy. u can never guess how much joy she brings to me when she came to the world. tak boleh nak gambarkan. bila doktor kata, 'she' is doing fine..... masa buat ultra sound for the first time. memang masa tu taknak tahu seks anak sebab tak nak kecewa. so i kept it as long as 8 months..... and accidently, the doktor broke the news.... tak boleh nak ganbarkan kegembiraan. bila keluar pulak tu tak nangis.... tapi aku nampak jari halusnya memegang bibir cradle tempat dia diletakkan....sedang doktor sibuk stich me up, oh god.... subhanallah.... ihad the most beautiful girl in the world... semuanya cantik, semuanya baik, semuanya oklah.... nangis ok, berak ok, kencing ok.... tapi bila dah mula taknak dengar kata, aku naik angin. sebab anak perempuan mesti dengar kata emak. i did do that to my daughter. i tak bolehnak let go, buat apa pun mesti i yang tentukan. tapi tak lama lepas tu, i think, 5 6 years kot... i let her go. biar dia buat decision. tapi by that time, she has already terpengaruh dan terikut=ikut aku. so, kalau she is dressed horibbly, blame me... if she think and talk like me, blame me.... i am so sorry ain. i hope as days goes by, please have your own identity.... you are not obligated to me, have yhour own life..
anyway, sebagai anak perempuan, aku rasa nak kongkong dia dan nak letak dia dalam jagaan kau selama-lamanya... tapi at the same time, i want her to encjoy life. enjoy youth. enjoy varsity life. enjoy friends. enjoy boyfriends... if any... whatever it is, go, .... go and live life. BUT always remember your line, garisan halus yang memisahkan halal dan haram. dosa pahala. baik buruk, baik jahat.... umi dan ayah.... if u were to break my heart it will break into thousand pieces... and will remain broken forever.... but i will always love u...
